
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Not-Back-to-School Blog Hop: School Room Week

Mr. Funny Face
It's 'Crazy, Silly, Funny Face!' week at i heart faces.
Leif is king of making faces for the camera.
Considering how crazy my boys are, this photo is fairly mild,
but I just took it yesterday while the family
enjoyed the afternoon at a friend's home and pool.
More photos coming, but I'll leave you with Mr. Funny Face today...

Saturday, August 8, 2009
Lovely
As I mentioned (for those of you who made it aaaalll the way to the end of my Note to a Friend),
I am on a quest for Lovely. (Much more about that coming up later this week....Stay tuned.)
As a visual person, much of what moves me is
artistry, nature, moments, details,
and emotion captured in images.
I receive so much encouragement and hope from God's astounding artistry in nature.
It reminds me that He is a God of beauty and hope and strength.
I feel as if I have an opportunity to participate in that artistry with my camera,
and focusing with my lens causes me to observe, interact, appreciate,
and drink in what I normally would not take the time to acknowledge.
I am also deeply affected by the friendships and human connection
I've experienced through this blog. You all, with your comments,
support, and interaction, have meant more than you realize.
You are lovely to me.
What encourages you?
I'm (in).
Reading and Watching

Dick King-Smith's most well-known children's book, Babe: The Gallant Pig, is one of my favorites. The author says this about the book and the subsequent movie version (which is another favorite):
It was soon plain to us that the adaptation from the book had been wonderfully well done.
There were differences, of course...but the director had stuck pretty faithfully to the central theme of my original story: the tale of an orphaned piglet who is adopted by a farmer and by his sheep-dog. This little pig, by virtue of his intelligence and determination, by his courage, and especially through his realization that politeness pays, comes eventually to win the Grand Challenge Sheep-dog Trials. One particular thing about the film that delighted me was that as soon as I set eyes on the actor who played Farmer Hogget, I saw to my amazement that he was the spitting image of the imaginary figure I'd had in my head when I wrote the book all those years before.
I've seen Babe six times now and every time I've laughed and I've cried....If you were to ask me to choose a favorite from among the dozens and dozens of books I've produced, I would probably say I think it may be the best.
And he goes on to tell the story of how the idea for Babe was first born. And it is true... do not miss this movie, if only for the superb acting of James Cromwell as Farmer Hogget.


The Water Horse was also made into a beautiful family movie by Walden Media, the production company behind the Narnia movies, Amazing Grace, Nim's Island, and I Am David.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
A Note to a Friend
I deliberated a while on how I should respond. A 'life really sucks, doesn't it?' wouldn't really cheer *me* up, a 'my life is lovely' is fairly accurate though not the whole truth and not exactly helpful, and you might want to whack me over the head if I went for the annoying 'you can do it, rah, rah, rah' cheerleader routine. I decided to go with an (endless) conversational tone. The downside is that you won't be able to get word in edgewise (which kinda defeats the 'conversation'), but the upside is that you can quit reading at anytime without hurting my feelings. Grin.
It isn't silly at all, wondering how people maintain a positive outlook in this world. I can completely relate to the discouraged and beat-down feeling. I think we're just experiencing it from completely different angles. Which makes my life look good to you and yours to me. Wry grin.
My blessings: 1. I have a good marriage. Not perfect by any stretch of the imagination , but GOOD. And I know how lucky I am. Russ is my polar opposite, which is exasperating at times, but we also create a nice balance together. 2. I have an *amazing* family. My parents live two miles down the road, my sisters (best friends) just 15 minutes away. Even my extended family is amazing. I am just beginning to realize the magnitude of that blessing. 3. I also don't have any adolescents (yet).
My struggles: 1. I am an emotional person and wish I could be more logical/matter-of-fact/suck-it-up. My mom would tell you that she had no idea what to do with me as a child. The sky was always falling. I was shy (but talkative... she got the short end of the stick on that one) and self-conscious. I wish I had confidence and verve. I wish I were witty/humorous. I want to be audacious. 2. I'm low on energy and self-discipline. Always have been. I could sleep 10 hours a night. I *envy* people who can make it on 5. I *envy* people with self-motivation. I am amazed by the amount of stuff some people accomplish. Ahem. 3. I love food + I can't resist food (we aren't talking veggies, here) + I'm always hungry + I'm terrible about exercising = Less energy and other physical problems (headaches...) and being frustrated with myself. Let's see, are we on #4? I'm not adventurous/independent/capable. I wholeheartedly admire women who can travel and do big things. I want to go places with the boys without being anxious or overwhelmed. I admire my adventurous, no-fear sister. She just makes it up as she goes along. 5. I want life to be painless and perfect. Which is just setting myself up for failure.
I know that having adolescents will be tough. Tougher than I imagine. But I don't really want to go there. Right now, I struggle with the physical exhaustion that comes from daily life with three very rambunctious little boys that leaves me at the end of the day feeling like I've been wrestling with an aligator for hours. I grew up with two sisters and a quiet dad. I thought I had parenting all figured out before my first son came along. Now, many days, I feel like I just don't have what it takes to raise well-behaved boys. Honestly, I wonder constantly what the balance is between giving boys independence and letting them be boys and expectations for volume/activity/attitude. Where do I find that happy in-between place with laid-back un-parenting on one side and uptight control-freak on the other side? Add to that the sleep-deprivation. I have no idea why God gave 3 bad sleepers to a woman who needs 10 hours a night. Surely they will sleep well (or take care of themselves in the middle of the night) in a few years, right?!
So, the depression story.... September was the month from hell. It started out with a weird pain in my chest/back/arm and went downhill from there. I have always had anxiety over health stuff. My 'big fear' is that I will get really sick. Now that I have little boys, that fear is magnified. How can I take care of them if I don't feel well? What will happen to them if I die? I looked around and could see all the blessing in my life. But everywhere else, I saw hurting people. I was always sure that my 40s would be my best decade, but suddenly I couldn't find someone in their 40s without health problems. *Everywhere* I turned, I heard stories of people whose children were sick or in trouble. I couldn't find a single person whose life I would want to live. Basically, I wondered how long it would take for the ball to drop in my life. How long can one go without anything in their beautiful life being taken away? I have no idea which came first, but I had tremendous anxiety over how I was feeling physically. I went to the Dr. and he did a bunch of tests, but also suggested depression. He said that all of my physical symptoms happened to be symptoms of depression/anxiety/OCD. Terrific.
How did I make it out of that spiral? Medication. It changed my life. (And a chiropractor for some of the back/arm pain.) By the end of October I was a new person. We went on the most amazing family vacation, and then I reveled in the holiday season. Okay, I also had to start ignoring how I felt physically rather than paying attention to every little ache and pain. I (at least for right now) have to leave/change the channel/avoid stories about hurting people. I don't read stories/blogs about babies/children in the hospital. I leave the room when my dh is watching House on TV. I don't watch the news. That is tough for me, because it makes me feel guilty, but it is just where I am right now. I am hopeful that eventually I can find a balance and be a sympathetic, concerned person while maintaining sanity.
I am a very, very visual person. Blogging and photography have become a very valuable therapy for me. I am able to block out the mess, and focus (mentally, emotionally, and visually--through my camera lens) on what is beautiful and uplifting in my life. It is like being in labor and I use my blog as my focal point. Imagine my youngest on the kitchen counter, naked of course (we're working on potty training), pouring himself a glass of orange juice. About 3 ounces make it into the cup. My oldest is using the couch as a gymnastics apparatus and singing (he doesn't have a mute button). My middle child is taking something apart to see how it works. I'm holed up in the disasterous school room in front of my computer. Ah, look at that adorable picture of a little boy holding a lamb. Hee-hee-hooooooooo. Hee-hee-hooooooooo.
Unfortunately, my blog probably gives many people the idea that I am calm, cool, collected, and content. Grin.
I'm still battling the feeling that *I* am the thing wrong with my life. I don't have anyone to blame but myself when my day goes badly. (See list of struggles above.)
Oh, I don't know if you saw the YouTube video on my blog a while back, but I was really struck by The Beckoning of Lovely. It was real, it was uplifting, it was empowering. I've used it as my new focal point. I don't know how to explain it, but I felt like, suddenly, I had a mission. And it wasn't about being perfect, or witty, or adventurous, or thin and beautiful, or wealthy. There are so many things, little things, that *anyone* can do to make life lovely, for themselves and others. I felt a lot of angst slip away. Now I'm the one who feels silly, typing that out. But there you have it. Smile.
Yes, there are a million things on my 'list' of things to do to improve myself and my life. Be consistent with Bible reading/devotions/spending time with God. Be diligent in daily tasks. Don't yell at the boys. Eat well. Exercise. Stop drinking Dr. Pepper. Be content with the person God made me. And I'm working on it, but those things are *hard* for me, and come very slowly. I'm constantly falling down, picking myself up, and starting all over again. Luckily His mercies are new every morning.
I have no idea if anything I wrote is remotely helpful, but I felt led to share it.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Summer Entertainment
Need perfect family summer entertainment?
One of our favorites is the summer concert series at a local park.
Although the Thursday evening series is well-known and highly attended,
we prefer the much quieter (and much less attended) Monday evening series.
We can show up just as the concert starts (or later), easily find a parking space,
and settle our blanket near the stage, with room to roam.
The boys can still squiggle, talk quietly, dance a little, read a book,
flirt with fellow concert-goers, or devour an ice cream cone.
Leif ran out of staying power before I was ready to leave the concert.
He decided to entertain himself by making faces for the camera.
What a ham.
(I'm having trouble getting the slide show to work. Hmmm.)
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
The Boys are Back in Town
have returned from their annual 'Boy Camp.'
Four days of tenting, boating, hiking, swimming,
roasting marshmallows, reading Hardy Boys, playing cards, and
trying daring stunts without an overprotective mom
around to gasp and squeal.
Leif and mom had a quiet weekend before heading
up to camp on the last day to partake of the fun.
Leif cannot wait until he is old enough next year to
join the big boys. While mom loved the one-on-one time
with her not-quite-a-baby-anymore, she is also
looking forward to next year...
Monday, August 3, 2009
Not-Back-to-School Blog Hop
Darcy at Life With My 3 Boybarians is hosting a blog hop during the month of August.
This is curriculum week, when we share what resources we are using.
I've linked this post from earlier this year.
Our year runs January-December
with a laid-back summer routine,
so we'll be continuing with the same resources
and schedule in September.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
One Berry, Two Berry...
Blueberries at the U-pick farm.
Raspberries at the farm stand.
I know I've shared my favorite blackberry recipe,
Blackberry Gingerbread, with you already,
so I'll share my favorite Berry Cobbler recipe today.
Berry Cobbler
4 cups raspberries or blackberries (or both!)
1 teaspoon lemon juice
1 cup sugar (or to taste)
1 Tablespoon cornstarch
1 cup flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 cup milk
1/4 cup melted butter
1 egg
Preheat oven to 375 degrees.
Mix berries and lemon juice.
Mix sugar and cornstarch.
Gently stir berry and sugar mixtures together.
Spread in 2 qt baking dish.
Mix flour, baking powder, and salt in medium bowl.
Stir in milk, butter, and egg.
Spread batter evenly over berries, sealing edge.
Sprinkle with additional sugar.
Bake 30-35 minutes or until top is golden brown.
(I often add a few extra berries and double the topping recipe. Yum!!)
Monday, July 27, 2009
The Relatives Came!
and shining faces and hugging in the doorways.
You'd have to go through at least four different hugs
to get from the kitchen to the front room. Those relatives!
And finally after a big supper two or three times around
until we all got a turn at the table, there was quiet talk
and we were in twos and threes through the house.
We had bag races, watermelon-seed-spitting contests,
and rides on Grampa's draft horse, too.
Until Grampa waved a yardstick in the air.
All of us kids dropped what we were doing and ran to the milk shed.
I liked looking at the marks of my gramma and her sisters
and brothers on the same doorway.
Hard to imagine that once they were little just like me.
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More acurately, we came (or went)... to see our relatives!
My Dad's family (he has 3 sisters and 3 brothers) have been getting together every summer for years and years. My aunt and uncle have hosted this event almost every year at their home on the Willamette River. No 'rides on Grampa's draft horse' but there is always a rousing game of volleyball going on as well as endless fun down at the river. A cousin (or two) always brings some interesting gadget or toy for the kids. This year it was a water rocket.... a big hit.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Educational Goals
Capable of Living a Rich Life:
Check it out!
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One more for you:
Illinois Loop has a WEALTH of information, articles, and links regarding education.
Fascinating stuff, I tell ya!
I particularly found their gender bias page to be enlightening.
This site is essential reading if you have a child of school age
(whether public, private, or home schooled),
or are generally interested in the state of education in our nation.
Beach Boys
Hard to believe it is week #29 at i heart faces!
I'm still coming off the high of winning 4th place
(out of 586) with my entry last week!!
We're on the beach this week (well, the theme is, anyway).
For some reason, I don't often get close-ups when we visit.
I'm thinking it might be that the boys are in constant motion.
This is one of the most realistic beach shots I have.
Three boys in three different directions.
I'm guessing other participants will have some
terrific shots to share. Head on over!

Saturday, July 25, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
All Good Things Must Come to an End
Realize our trailer battery died.
Search around for some flashlights
so we can find our beds.
Day 8
Drag our weary bodies home.
Mom and Dad and Ilex and Drake drive over
to help us quickly unload the trailer.
How nice is that?!
Just glad to be home and in our own beds.
Read Time of Wonder by Robert McCloskey with the boys.
(Thanks for the recommendation, Colleen. We love it.)
Marvel and wonder at the similarities between
the children's vacation on the islands and our own island vacation...
even starting and ending with the rain.
Place our beach treasures on the 'nature table'
in the boys' bedroom.
And remember.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
San Juan Island
Blue skies. Sunshine. White, fluffy clouds. I'll take it.
Eat more Fruit Loops.
Back to town to grab a bite to eat at the market.
Visit yesterday's picnic table.
Back to board the ferry.
Luke discovers puzzles on the tables inside.
Luckily we can still see the view from the window...
Arrive at Friday Harbor, San Juan Island.
Visit laundromat #2 (drat that pesky rain yesterday!).
Browse a few shops.
Browse the gatehouse gift shop.
Taste-test the lavender vanilla ice cream. Oh. My. Goodness. Heavenly.
Suddenly very hot. How did that happen?!
Back to the ferry dock to wait in line.
Browse a few more shops while the boys stay in the truck and read.
Ahhhhh. Solitude.
Ferry ride #3. The natives get restless.
Back to Deception Pass.
Bask in the sunset.
Late dinner and crash into bed.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Lopez Island
Up bright and early. Well, early anyway. Note the gray world and drizzling rain.
Pack the truck with camping gear. Gulp. Leave the trailer behind at Deception Pass. Sigh.
Switch bike rack to truck. Get in line for the ferry ride to Lopez Island.
First time on a big boat for the boys.
Snag one of the last camping spots on the island (at Spencer's Spit) and breathe a sigh of relief.
Set up tent in the rain. Drive off to explore the island.
Buy lunch at the market, eat at a picnic table outside during a break in the weather,
and browse the local historical museum.
Ride bikes down to Spencer's Spit and play on beach. Gather rocks and shells.
Make our way back to our tent to turn in early.
Eat Fruit Loops while watching a movie on Russ's laptop until the battery runs dead...
A Day at Deception Pass

Packing in 90 degree heat and arriving in 50 degree wet weather means running out of jeans and sweatshirts very early in the week. Time for the laundromat (and quite a novelty for the boys). Have some pizza while we're in town...
Might as well turn in early since it is raining, and we have an early start tomorrow...
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Mount St. Helens to Deception Pass
We spent our first night at the state park near Mount St. Helens. It would have been even more inviting had there not been a militia of monster mosquitoes! I think I lost a pint of blood, and we headed into the trailer early.
The next morning dawned cool and misty. The boys rode their bikes around our camp site (Leif figured out how to ride his little bike with training wheels... I'm so glad Russ brought it along!!). Levi spent some time reading in the great outdoors.
Walked up to the look-out....
Lovely view of the clouds...
We then packed up camp and headed north. The drive was dull and gray. The boys read and read and read. We finally made it to Anacortes!
We parked the trailer at Deception Pass State Park and watched the sunset from the beach. Gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous. Even if it was cloudy and cool.